Wednesday, May 23

Traffic light

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From full throttle to still
From advancing to our destination
From undecided to nil


From all in to all out
From yes to no
From accelerate then the opposite
From 'lets do this' to 'please no'

From a place of strength to vulnerability
From movement to dismay
From regretful teeter tottering 
From a halt that lasts a day

From constantly changing to constant just
Emotions that move with the night
A green I wish to be with you 
Not a fickle traffic light


time heals

Friday, April 13

Bread and Butter

The bread and butter of our home is playing your part in the family team
The bread and butter of our home is leaving areas the way you found them
The bread and butter of our home is doing your best 
The bread and butter of our home is being open and honest
The bread and butter of our home is building each other up


I forgot the bread and butter of our home one day and was asked to move out. Now I live at the White house with no bread or butter. . .




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Parents are awesome even if it doesn't feel like it at the time. Their fickleness and pedantic mannerisms aren't because they want to make your life harder. Its actually a product of their greater life experience (believe it or not). I'm only realising this now and I'm only scratching the surface of this realisation. I know that as the year goes on more and more of their random sayings will come to mind in the times that I need them. The 'Bread and Butter' of your home is what your parents say it is. Its there to protect and grow you. Don't take it for granted and don't take them for granted.  

Its almost been a month since I moved out of home and I really am missing how easy it used to be with my parents, but I know that I am exactly where God wants me even if I am super mega ultra hungry of dooooooom.

Ps: Enjoy the freebies while they last. Make the most of rentlessness and Curfews. You're gonna get to a point where you wish your flat had a mum that policed 'bed time', because people stay up late for no reason at all.




I love lamp. I love life =) 

Thursday, March 8

Study Music

I know I'm weird but I reckon everyone is in their own unique way .


Study Music is one of those things that is completely different for everyone. My study music is a bit random but it gets me to work and focussed on what I'm doing. Here's a few of my favs.

















Dont hate the player hate the game

Wednesday, March 7

The road not taken... till now



Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
and sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveller, long I stood
and looked down one as far as I could
to where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
and having perhaps the better claim
because it was grassy and wanted wear;
though as for that, the passing there
had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
in leaves no feet had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less travelled by,
and that has made all the difference


-Robert Frost



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Henry Thoreau said, "When its time to die, lets not discover that we have never lived."

The prospect of fading into obscurity and mediocrity frightens me. Too live a life on a path destined for 'good' seems so meaningless. For too long I have been content with existing but never living. Going from day-to-day letting life happen to me and not being bothered at all by it. I don't know how or why but I've changed.


Deux routes ont divergé dans un bois, et je
j'ai pris celui moins parcouru près,

et cela a fait toute différence.
Au milieu d'hiver j'ai découvert en moi un été invincible.
Je sens en feu. Je suis libre. Je m'anime.
'Choisi' est le moins que je puisse dire.
Je suis nommé.




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Wednesday, February 29

Speak

I have a secret in my head
I have a secret in my heart
I have a saviour up in heaven
from whom all goodness starts
but quiet is my voice and loud are my thoughts


I have hopes and dreams for all who are near
To see them at the altar under your care
To hear from their lips that you reign
To watch as you work and take all their pain
but quiet is my voice and loud are my thoughts


I have days alone tired and distraught
Thinking 'Isn't Jesus with me? atleast that's what I was taught'.
I think more of him in an attempt to get better
like he responds to thoughts as our personal debtor
You see quiet is my voice and loud are my thoughts


I sit silent trying to engage in him
meditating with vigor in an attempt to escape my sin
Circumstances remain constant its as if my silent pleas are unoticed
Can't he see my struggles? Surely he know this
that silent is my voice and loud are my thoughts...

Ps 120:1 - I SPEAK to the Lord in my distress and he answers me.


Speak. Scream and Shout.
Open your mouth let words come out.
With more than a thought exalt his name.
With more than your head declare is fame.
Loud your thoughts should be but louder still your voice.
Speak 


Dream with the innocence of a child,
Pray with the fervor of a disciple
Speak with the authority of a king

Tuesday, February 28

hope held high

hope held high to the future true
whilst present emotions pass in blue
"till death do us part" is what I'd like to hear
but 'but this' and 'this that' is all you mumble dear
choked up with hurt translates to indifference
all avoided if not for amatory belligerence...
where is my garment of praise

hope held high to the future ahead
whilst present emotions pass in red
walking as if emotionaly drained
against the veneer of one who feels no pain
passion pushing past problematic places
see its not hard to cover up with one of my many jovial faces...
where is my garement of peace

hope held high to the future clean
whilst present emotions pass in green
stomach turning head churning 
chest throbbing heart sobbing
body bagging feeling dragging
outcome...
where is my garment of victory


"...For I know the plans I have for you,"
declares the Lord,
"Plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
plans to give you hope and a future..."   

hope held high to the days of now
where present emotions echo an epiphanous 'Wow'
No longer will my lip drop or heart stop
nor will my hands rest untill my final test
for these days of now are my years prime
so get ready as I step into my appointed time.





You silly sucker 

Sunday, February 26

Flying

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a hampered ascent
with a headwind's blow
whilst beleagured by
squalls rash streaks
and ice cold snow.

caught in your draft
im lead to more
to greater heights
to where?
... unsure.

at last arrived to which we drop
gliding on endless air
our landing flawless
our lives are lawless
we're birds without a care.


i had a lucid dream lastnight that i was flying.
so i wrote a poem about it (above).
i've always wanted to fly...

to not only ride but be the wind.
to fly to the centre of a hurricane.
to STIR-UP maelstroms and fight against the ocean.
to twirl with a tornado or twist with a twister
to sleep amongst the stars
to hug clouds
to crashland and take off
to do a loop-dee-loop
to dress up as an alien and make people think theyre real
i wish i was a bird

someday soon i hope